BOOK REVIEW | MAYBE SOMEDAY BY COLLEEN HOOVER (INCLUDES SPOILERS)

February 16, 2018

Ah at last, my first book review of 2018. I'll be honest with you guys, 2018 started horrible in regards to my reading goal. I started 2 books this year with the hopes of doing better than last year, but unfortunately, I couldn't get passed the first 30 pages of either book without getting frustrated with how disconnected I felt. Neither book had a strong plot line or characters that made me want to keep reading on. I become discouraged that maybe I just lost my love for reading, a little dramatic I know, but at the time, all I could think about was that it had 3 months since I last read a book, which is not good. At all.

Long and behold though, I decided to pick up Maybe Someday by Colleen Hoover because I was tired of moping around, and realized that the right book will come eventually. Maybe Someday was more than just the right book. It's one of those books that make you remember why you love reading. It's one of those books that have the capability to drag you out of any reading slump. It's one of those books that take hold of your heart, and not let it go.


*Disclaimer: This book review does contain spoilers. I would advise those who haven't yet read Maybe Someday to read it, then come back and read this.

Synopsis
Sydney is living in an idyllic bubble—she's a dedicated student with a steady job on the side. She lives with her best friend, has a great boyfriend, and the music coming from the balcony opposite hers is fast becoming the soundtrack to her life. But when Sydney finds out her boyfriend is cheating on her, the bubble bursts. The mysterious and attractive man behind the music, Ridge, gives Sydney hope that she can move on and they begin to write songs together. But moving on is harder than she expects, Sydney can only hope…. 

Maybe someday… 

Colleen Hoover draws you in to this passionate tale of music, love and betrayal… -Goodreads

Plot
I'm not going to lie, when I initially read the synopsis, this is what I got: a girl gets screwed over by her roommate and boyfriend, girl meets boy next door, and they fall in love, end of story. I assumed it would be like any other college romance story, nothing special. Boy, was I wrong. Yes, at a micro view, that's basically what the story is about, but it is so much more complex than that. Maybe Someday is an emotional roller coaster because our main characters, Sydney and Ridge, are so dynamic. They have layers and layers to their characters, and their relationship is just so conflicting, yet it somehow works out perfectly.

The pacing was also perfect. I never felt like things were rushed or dragged out for too long. Everything about this story felt realistic, and I appreciate that so much. Probably my favorite aspect of the book is the musical elements. Maybe Someday is an experience. Colleen Hoover collaborated with musician, Griffin Peterson to provide us the chance to have the music made between Ridge and Sydney come alive. Each song should be listened to as they appear in the novel, and my goodness, did this cause some tears. This is the first time I ever got to experience something like this while reading, and I loved it so much.

Characters
Sydney. I love the way Sydney was portrayed. Her character was so real and natural that I shamelessly couldn't help but see parts of her in myself. I loved her witty remarks just as much as I loved her internal conflicts. From having her boyfriend of 2 years cheat on her with her roommate to meeting this amazing guy next door, Sydney's journey was not an easy one. Yes, there were a few moments where I got frustrated with her, but nothing that made me dislike her character in anyway. I saw Sydney as a strong female character, and someone that deserved her happy ending. 

Ridge. Alright, Colleen Hoover is the queen of making the perfect male characters. Ridge is absolutely amazing. My heart soared for him at the same time it broke for him. The main thing I loved about the way Hoover approached Ridge's deafness was the fact that she didn't make it a huge deal. When he told Sydney he was deaf, I didn't even believe it at first because he'd been acting so "normal," so the thought that he was different in someway never crossed my mind. Ridge's deafness is a huge part of his character, but it's not something that was a disadvantage to him. Other than in the obvious ways, I never once felt that his disability got in the way of how he lived his everyday life. He was just another guy going through a difficult situation. However, I would be lying if I didn't say that him being deaf didn't make me fall in love with him a little bit more. I'm a sucker for characters that aren't perfect, and Ridge's flaws are what made him a deal breaker for me.

Maggie. Why why why why did she have to be so perfect. I wanted to hate Maggie so much because she was the reason why Ridge couldn't be with Sydney, and I wanted them together soooo bad. But Maggie was just so sweet and perfect, that I almost didn't mind if her and Ridge stayed together. At one point, I was rooting for them instead of Sydney lol. When she found out about Ridge and Sydney, my heart broke for her (but I was a little joyful not gonna lie). Yes, her disease made me feel bad, but I think it made everyone feel bad, which is not what she wanted. She didn't want people shielding her from things because of her disease. I loved the way she handled the situation, and I loved that she broke things off with Ridge, but in a way that was more powerful for her than heartbreaking. My favorite line from the entire book is this:
She has someone so much stronger than I'll ever be for her. She has herself.

Warren. The asshole that we all secretly love. At first, I didn't think too much about Warren, but as the story progressed, the more active the role of his character played. Warren is not my favorite person, but he has good intentions and I respect how much her cares about Ridge and Maggie. I love how he treats Ridge as if his disability is not something that he should be ashamed or embarrassed of. That yes his friend is deaf, but that doesn't mean he's going to treat him any different that he would treat any of his friends that can hear.

Writing
Colleen Hoover is slowly becoming one of my favorite authors. Her words are so captivating that by the first sentence, I'm hooked. She not only knows how to draw the reader in, but she can keep the reader engaged until the very end, where they beg for more. Maybe Someday is written beautifully. Nothing about this novel was difficult, except for how I felt throughout it all. The queen of contemporary romance is here for her crown!

Final Thoughts
I've mentioned this before, but one of my top reasons for why I love reading so much is that it always allows me to learn something from a different perspective. Prior to reading Maybe Someday, I was opposed to cheating. Being unfaithful is one of the most terrible things you can do to someone's heart, and this book did not challenge that. I still think cheating is horrible, but I don't think Hoover was trying to say it wasn't. What I found interesting was the difference between Tori and Hunter's situation, and Sydney and Ridge's situation. Both situations involved some kind of cheating, but their different, and in a way, one is understandable. What Tori and Hunter did was physical and meaningless. They were just shitty people, point blank. On the other hand, although Ridge and Sydney kissed and got close once, they were constantly battling their feelings for each other, for the sake of Maggie. Now, in no way does that excuse what they did, but what I learned was that cheating is not always black and white. Unlike Tori and Hunter, Ridge and Sydney were emotionally involved with each other. To me, the actual cheating was them falling in love, not the one kiss that they shared. The fact that I am opposed to cheating, yet was rooting for Ridge and Sydney has to say something, right? If it's love, can cheating be justified? Can you love two people at once?

This book was not what I expected at all. I laughed when Bridgette thought Sydney was deaf. I cried when Ridge spoke after 15 years of being silent. And I loved every second of it. Maybe Someday is going down as one of the best books I've ever read.

Rating
5 out of 5 STARS

My Favorite Songs
Living a Lie
Something
A Little Bit More
Maybe Someday
Let It Begin 


YOU DON'T HAVE TO TRY SO HARD | 1 AM THOUGHTS

January 14, 2018

It's been months since I've written a post so personal here on the blog. I look over to the corner of my screen and see that it's 1 in the morning. As I'm typing this, I find it so crazy that my first thought was to grab my laptop and write. This is why I call Kathlyn's Korner my safe haven. I can come here knowing that whatever thoughts I'm thinking or emotions I'm feeling, they are welcomed. I can be whoever I want to be, and say whatever I want on this space without the restrictions of others holding me back. With that being said, let's get down to it.

Being in college, I have met so many great people, and have already experienced so many new things. I've changed and grown since my first semester, and I'm proud of who I am, and what I've accomplished. I've consistently pushed myself out of my bubble in regards to being more social. I started working at a new job that requires A LOT of my energy, but one that I'm ecstatic to be apart of. I've finally gathered up the courage to chase after my dream career without caring what other people have to say about it. Everything seems to be going well, at least that's what I try and tell myself.

One of the things that I've gotten really good at is being honest with myself, and if I'm being completely honest right now, I feel like I'm putting on a front. I feel like I'm going through life with a facade on. It's not that I think that I'm fake, or that I'm so far apart from who I truly am. I think my problem is that I'm getting too caught up in trying to make sure my college years aren't a repeat of what I went through in high school. Without getting into the nitty gritty of it, high school was not a happy time or place for me. I went from pretending to be someone I wasn't in order to fit in, to being completely by myself because I pushed everyone away from me. I never liked who I was in high school because I was always afraid to be myself. I would always compare myself to others, whether it be the outgoing girl in class that always made everyone laugh to the quiet creative girl that everyone secretly loved. I've always felt like I wasn't good enough, and I still feel like that. Being in college has only intensified my feeling of not being good enough. Like who I am when I'm all alone is not worthy. I constantly feel like I have to try so hard to be the funny one, the sweet one, the one who people want to be around. It gets so frustrating because I just want to be me. I've spent my whole life trying so hard to not disappoint other people that I've forgotten who I really am behind the facade.

I'm not the girl who can act tough all the time. I'm the most sensitive person I know.
I'm not the girl who can talk shit about other people all the time. Yes, I realize that we all talk a little crap, but I hate gossip. It puts me in uncomfortable positions.
I'm not the girl that is fully confident in my body. Just like a lot of people, I have self esteem issues. I went 2 weeks barely looking at myself in a mirror because I hated what I saw.
I'm not the girl who has these crazy life stories or does crazy things. I haven't done anything wild. I have no crazy boy stories or wild nights out. I sit in my room and read books all day. Literally.
I'm not the girl who cares about materialistic things. I crave meaning. I crave connection. Why? Because it's something that has always been lacking in my life.

I'm so tired of trying so hard to be perfect. I'm so tired of trying so hard to not mess up. I'm so tired of trying so hard to make sure other people like me, when I deep down I know they probably don't give two shits about me. I'm so damn tired of trying so hard to be someone that everyone, but me wants to be. I'm only 18, and I don't know who I am exactly or what I want to do, but I know for a fact it's not this.

Try by Colbie Caillat is my song for 2018. Every time I find myself stressing out about keeping up this image of what everyone else wants me to be, I play this song and it calms me. Its simple lyrics have such a powerful affect on me because they hold so much truth. I don't have to try so hard. I don't have to be a different person when I leave the comfort of my room. I don't want to go back to high school. I don't want to go home every day and hate the person I am. I don't want to be that person who is afraid to be herself. I don't want to have two different identities.

When I look at myself in the mirror, stripped down from everything there is, I want to say I love the person looking back at me. I want to be able to say I love myself and mean it. But not only that, I want that same person looking back at me to show the world who she really is. No physical change should change the person I am on the inside. No amount of makeup, clothing, friends, whatever out-worldly thing there is should change who I am.

The journey to self-love is not an easy one. It's one that I have been too egotistical to start. It's one that I realize that I desperately need to embark on, and the first step is realizing that the girl in the mirror staring back at me is good enough, just the way she is.

Until next time,

k.m.

You don't have to try so hard
You don't have to give it all away
You just have to get up, get up, get up, get up
You don't have to change a single thing.


NEW YEAR, NEW ME?

January 3, 2018

*Not my photo. Photo from tumblr. 

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!!!!!!

Ahh, 2018 has finally arrived and I can't tell you guys how excited I am to start all over again. I feel like the new year is just one big reset button, and this time around I really felt the need to push it. I know there's a lot of talk about new year's resolutions, and how you shouldn't wait 'til the new year to get yourself in line with your goals and whatnot. I agree, somewhat. I do think that you shouldn't wait until it's a new year to realize that you should make some changes in your life, however, there's something about it being a new year, a whole new 365 days to make your own, especially if the last 365 were pretty crappy.

For me personally, I'm not planning on going overboard, and jotting down unrealistic goals that I won't be able able to maintain for longer than 2 weeks. 2017 was a real self-reflecting year for me. I became really honest with myself and allowed myself to be vulnerable. I went through a lot of things, emotionally and physically:
  • I graduated from high school and started college
  • I moved out of my house (even if it's only 30 minutes away)
  • I started working in fast food lol
  • I found a career that fits me (crosses fingers)
  • I hit rock-bottom, like crying in the middle of class and having breakdowns in the bathroom lol
To say the least, 2017 meant a lot to me. I found myself maturing and slowly becoming the person I was meant to be. I don't want to reflect too much about the past year because that's not what this post is about. I'm not here to share my past failures and lowest points in my life. That's another post for a different day. For today, I'm here to share with you guys my goals for 2018. My plan of actions that I will take upon for me to complete. There's no more time to be wasted sitting around, wishing I was someone else. There's no more time for being lazy, and not getting shit done. There's no more time to be stuck, which is exactly how I've felt my whole life. 2018 is my year, and I've already claimed it.

2018 - MY PLAN OF ACTIONS
  1. Find a cause, something that matter close to my heart, and be an advocate for it. Learn about it, do my research, and make it a part of who I am and what I do. There's so many problems that the world is faced with everyday. I believe that if I can find a cause that matters to me, and devote my time and money to it, then I am doing my part as a privileged human in making this world a better place. I encourage you all to do the same.
  2. Save up AT LEAST $1,500 this year. I have dreams of moving to New York when I graduate from college, which is in 4 years. We all know that living in NYC is not cheap, so I better start saving now so I'm not struggling so much later.
  3. Read 12 books this year. I know I didn't meet this goal in 2017, but that's okay. The motivation wasn't there, but I feel it this time around. My hands are already itching to pick up books and dive right into them. I also know that 12 books might not seem like a lot, but I'm choosing to focus on quality over quantity from now on. I still hope to surpass this number though. 
  4. Put effort into my bookstagram and blog. Kathlyn's Korner has been with me for 2 years. I'm ready to start taking it seriously and have it be more than just a place for me to write my thoughts. This is my safe haven, and it will always be. It's where I feel like I can be myself without anything holding me back. I'm ready to share that with the world, and not hide behind it anymore. I don't want to focus on the amount of followers and views I get on instagram or my blog, because that does not truly matter to me, at least not that much. I want to focus on building relationships with my readers. I want to make friends, not followers. I want to make sure I am putting the best content out there for you guys. 
  5. Attend a yoga class AT LEAST once a week. The gym at my university has weekly workout class that we can attend, and I started going to the yoga ones a few times last year. I really enjoyed it, and always felt great after each session. I love yoga because it's not super fast, and there's no one yelling at me to try harder or go faster. It's a soothing practice, that helps me connect with my mind, body, and soul, and I hope to grow in all of those areas in my life. 
  6. Explore faith. My journey of spirituality is one that I have been hesitant to start. I don't know where I stand with God or whatever is out there. I know that I believe in something, I just don't know what, and I don't want to put a label on anything just yet. I've been interested in the Bahai faith for some time, so I'll be reading on that this year, and seeing if I connect with it. Faith is something that's hard to explain, but I don't want to force anything.
  7. De-clutter my space and my life. I'm a practicing minimalist, in theory. I have yet to actually take the actions to declutter my life. Physically, I just want to cut down on a lot of the things that I own, such as clothes, decorations, and random materialistic stuff. Books will obviously be excluded from this because come on, I'm a book lover. Decluttering my life is just me trying my best to live without all the unnecessary stress that I place on myself. This means valuing quality over quantity in most aspects of my life. When it comes to  my relationships, my time, my energy, you get the jiff. 
And there you have it! I'll be doing an update post every three months until the end of the year so you guys can see how I'm doing keeping up with my resolutions. I hope you guys have a great start to the year, and a great 2018 in general. This is your year, so claim it. 

What is your plan of action(s) for the new year?

Until next time, 

k.m.

MY FAVORITE READ OF 2017

December 18, 2017


Every year, I always set a number of books that I plan to read, a reading goal if you wanna call it. This year, I originally planned on reading about 20 books, but then I quickly realized that that wasn't going to happen, so I reduced it to 12 books instead. I thought that this limit would be better for me because at least, I could read a book a month. Or so I thought. In all honesty, 2017 has been an incredibly slow reading year for me. As of now, I've only read 9 books this year, and I don't see myself picking up another book in the remaining weeks of the year. To say that I'm disappointed in myself is an understatement. I kind of threw reading to the back burner and turned my attention elsewhere. However, I will say although I barely read any books this year, the ones that I managed to pick up and finish were amazing. I got to read some incredible stories that had some of the best characters I've met. I found a few new authors that I am so excited to delve more into their work. I also finished one of my favorite childhood series this year. So, in retrospect, I believe I chose quality over quantity this year, and for that, I'm somewhat satisfied.

With all of the thrilling books that I was so lucky to get my hands on, one book in particular stood out to me this year. Before I jump into it, I want to get a few things out of the way first. One, this will not be a book review for the book. I read it a while back, and a proper review is past due. This will basically be me just gushing about how much I love this book, and that you should read it immediately. Two, there has only been one other book that has left an emotional mark in my life, and that was Me Before You by Jojo Moyes. Although this book does not equate to Me Before You, the emotions it evoked out of me were very similar. This just means that I bawled my eyes at the end, teared up every time I saw the cover, and was basically emotionally ruined for 2 weeks :) Now that we got that out of the way, let's reveal this incredible book that has landed the title for my favorite read of 2017.

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IT ENDS WITH US BY COLLEEN HOOVER
Synopsis
SOMETIMES THE ONE WHO LOVES YOU IS THE ONE WHO HURTS YOU THE MOST

Lily hasn't always had it easy, but that's never stopped her from working hard for the life she wants. She's come a long way from the small town in Maine where she grew up - she graduated from college, moved to Boston, and started her own business. So when she feels a spark with a gorgeous neurosurgeon named Ryle Kincaid, everything in Lily's life suddenly seems almost too good to be true.
Ryle is assertive, stubborn, and maybe even a little arrogant. He's also sensitive, brilliant, and has a total soft spot for Lily, but Ryle's complete aversion to relationships is disturbing.
As questions about her new relationship overwhelm her, so do thoughts of Atlas Corrigan - her first love and a link to the past she left behind. He was her kindred spirit, her protector. When Atlas suddenly reappears, everything Lily has built with Ryle is threatened. 
With this bold and deeply personal novel, Colleen Hoover delivers a heart-wrenching story that breaks exciting new ground for her as a writer. It Ends With Us is an unforgettable tale of love that comes at the ultimate price.
*This book contains graphic scenes and very sensitive subject matter. - Goodreads

Okay now before I jump into how life-changing and heart-breaking this book is, let me just say that I had been dying to read a book by Mrs. Hoover herself, but could never decide which one would be the right one to start with because she has so many! I steered away from her Slammed series because teacher-student romances are not my cup of tea. Ultimately, I think the reason I chose this book was because it received so many positive reviews, and one of my trusty reviewers on Goodreads gave it 4/5 stars. I bought it not knowing much about it, other than that it was a romance novel. Little did I know that this book would completely fuck me up!

It Ends With Us is one of those books that touches your heart. It completely surpasses any expectations I had for romance novels. When I say it shattered me, it gripped my heart from the very beginning and slammed it on the ground repeatedly throughout the entire book. There was never a moment reading this novel where I felt bored or cringing because of the material. Everything was done so perfectly that I still don't understand how this book can be real.

It Ends With Us is one of those realistic books about romance. It's not overly saturated with cheesy and cliche lines or situations. The realistic dynamic it brings only makes the story and characters so much more real, which ultimately makes it harder to read because it's something that you can see happening to so many people, which is so heart shattering. I hope I'm not saying too much and spoiling it for you guys who haven't read it. Oops. 

To wrap it up, let me just say this: It Ends With Us touched me in so many ways. It gave me new perspectives to view common situations. It gave me a love story where a woman's growth and development as a person was far more important than a man. It completely tore me apart and I loved every second of it. I don't give many books 5/5 stars, but this one, definitely deserves it. 

So Mrs. Colleen Hoover, thank you for writing such an inspiring book. I can't wait to read more of your work in the upcoming year. 

What was your favorite read of 2017?

Until next time,

k.m

BOOK REVIEW | hush, hush by BECCA FITZPATRICK (SPOILER FREE)

November 25, 2017


Disclaimer: This is my first book review in like 3 months so bear with me. I'm trying to get back into the groove of things.

Synopsis
"A SACRED OATH
A FALLEN ANGEL
A FORBIDDEN LOVE
Romance was not part of Nora Grey's plan. She's never been particularly attracted to the boys at her school, no matter how hard her best friend, Vee, pushes them at her. Not until Patch comes along. With his easy smile and eyes that seem to see inside her, Patch draws Nora to him against her better judgment.
But after a series of terrifying encounters, Nora's not sure whom to trust. Patch seems to be everywhere she is and seems to know more about her than her closest friends. She can't decide whether she should fall into his arms or run and hide. And when she tries to seek some answers, she finds herself near a truth that is way more unsettling than anything Patch makes her feel.
For she is right in the middle of an ancient battle between the immortal and those that have fallen - and, when it comes to choosing sides, the wrong choice will cost Nora her life" - Goodreads.

Plot
Overall, I found the plot to hush, hush to be very intriguing and engaging. I say this because I never found myself bored or struggling to read throughout the novel. Instead, I found myself glued onto every page, wanting to know all the answers to the mysteries. For being a fantasy/paranormal novel, I found it to be very much realistic. For instance, I did not perceive anything to be too far-fetched, such as Nora's discovery and reactions to Patch, him being a fallen angel, and the supernatural elements beyond that.

This is the first book I have read about fallen angels, and I loved it. I think it did a good job describing that type of supernatural world without overwhelming the reader, or making them feel like their out of the loop.

The pacing was perfect for me, because a lot was going on and the author never dragged a scene. Fitzpatrick did a good job with giving the readers as little information as possible, but enough to keep us enthralled in the story until the very end. hush, hush to me was very suspenseful because as the reader, I knew just as much as Nora, which was literally nothing lol. Although some things were predictable, there was still that element of shock for me, especially towards the end. It is the little things that are placed throughout the story that you don't expect to play such a huge role.

I was satisfied with the ending, but a lot of questions were still unanswered, and I know that there is still so much more to be uncovered about the characters.

Characters (The main ones without giving too much away)
Nora. Surprisingly, I found Nora's character to be very much likeable. I can see why some people would not be too fond of her. Her thoughts and actions are kind of all over the place, and are never in sync. I think Nora has a lot to learn as a character, and she has a lot of room to grow into a stronger bad-ass woman. With that being said, there are a few things that I admire from her character that I want to make note of. For starters, she is an amazing friend and daughter, and I could tell how much she cares for other people. There were multiple instances where she put her safety at risk for the well-being of others, and although this can be seen as stupid, I admired her selfless attitude regardless. Another thing I loved about Nora was how she dealt with Patch. I'm not gonna lie, from the second Patch was introduced I was already falling for him. What can I say, I'm a sucker for bad and mysterious boys! Anyways, Nora's approach to Patch was pretty realistic, meaning that she was suspicious of him, but still interested. She never threw herself at him or fell for him too quickly.

Patch. I love him. I just love him. I don't know what it is about him, his charming looks or smart ass mouth, but this guy draws me in. I was a little skeptical of him because I read a few reviews, and they weren't so fond of him, but the second he was introduced, all hanging perceptions of him vanished. One thing I liked a lot about his character was his humor and how he never came on too strong to Nora. Even though the attraction and tension between the two was SO strong and SO prevalent, I do think it was Patch's approach to the whole situation that did not make it awkward or uncomfortable to read. Just like Nora, I knew he was dangerous and I hated myself for how much I was attracted to him.

Vee. I felt that Vee's character was exactly what was needed in the story. Whereas Nora is pretty simple and conservative, Vee is spontaneous and giddy. She added a light-heartened feel to the overall story because of her attitude. I know in the story, Nora and Vee are referred to as best friends, but it wasn't until the end when I felt that to be true. With all the positives to Vee's character, midway in the plot, I found her to be quite naive and a little bit annoying. I still love her character, don't get me wrong, but at times her spontaneous actions caused more trouble than intended.

Writing
I found the writing to be very descriptive, which was great for me because I could picture everything happening in my head. There wasn't any part of the book where I felt confused because of the wording or style. However, there is one thing I want to talk about, which I found to be very cool honestly. There were so many surprises that happened, and the way some of them were handled, writing style wise, kind of threw me off. For instance, a sentence would start with someone doing something casual, and then at the very end of that sentence something crazy happens, and I'm just like WAIT WHAT. I loved it though because it added a wow factor, and it stood as an element of surprise because I did not see it coming.

Does that make sense?

Final Thoughts
Overall, I really enjoyed this novel. I was putting  it off because I kept hearing mixed reviews about it, but I saw it in my school library one day and decided to pick it up. I loved how everything kept me intrigued, and how all the small pieces came together in the end, for the most part at least. I can't wait to read the next book!!!!

Rating
4 OUT OF 5 STARS


Until next time,

k.m.


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